The Internet IS Public

Kind of an obvious statement but one that is easily forgotten. Similar to the idea that an ASL conversation is almost never private. Anyone can see it. If you put something on the internet, be sure that you would be okay for ANYONE to see it. If there is even one person that you don't want to see it, you should probably NOT post it. I recently made a post venting about a few issues in my life and I assumed that no one read my blog because no one ever posts comments. I was wrong. My ex-boyfriend saw and called me out on a few things. I totally forgot about the post because I just vented it all out and dumped it here. That is the purpose of my blog, but then I realized that if people ARE reading my blog still (even just one or two people that I know) I need to go back to being a little more tactful :( and careful about what specific details I write.

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New Testiment Parables

Hi. Once again, I have put off my homework until the very last second, so I am writing my paper here. (here means in the library on my blog) I am so stressed out and my mom won't stop texting me!!!!! GAH

Today I will be discussing Jesus' parable of the  unjust manager from Luke 16:1-9.
1. What is a parable? (Oxford companion to the bible) it is a very broad term that basically means that Jesus puts air quotes and starts a story with  "hypothetically..." paralell universe....hyperbole...a short story used to illistrate a point by relating to the day to day lives of the audience. most of them include things such as animals or farms or the synagogue. (gotquestions.org)Earthly story heavenly meaning...deep truth
2. Why did Jesus use parables? Because it was a common teaching tool....because He wanted only his disciples to know what they meant because everyone else rejected Him and didn't deserve to know.
3. parable of the  unjust manager from Luke 16:1-9. The parable is about a man who finds out that the manager of his estate is not telling the truth about his accounting. The man gets fired, but not before finding a clever way to cheat the man one last time and assure himself some support so that he doesn't have to beg.
4. there other places that this story is in the Bible? Nope
5. What is the meaning of the parable? What was Jesus trying to teach his audience?(ttp://lavistachurchofchrist.org/LVanswers/2006/01-28.htm) says that the meaning of the parable is that some people know how to get what they want-especially "bad"people getting things of little or no value, while righteous people often do not know how to manage important things. Jesus was trying to teach His audience the importance of taking care of thiongs that are important and the value of being shrewd.
6. The meaning and general application of this parable would be the same for both Jews of the first centery and readers today. Be wise with small things and learn how to keep and take care of important things.

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Spring Semester 2012

WOW! I almost forgot about this blog! It has honestly been so long, that I find it hard to write anything. I have mostly been avoiding blogging because I am also avoiding my technology class home work O.o Also, I can't decide what to disclose or not disclose here. I have been through a lot this semester. Right now I just want to say hat today I had a daydream about becoming Deaf, and I got so excited that I had to keep reminding myself that I am indeed still a hearing student and not Super Deafy. Gah. Yeah. I hate myself sometimes......wait wit wait. back up. Ok. Start from Christmas. When I got back from christmas, at first things wee really cool with Sevan and I. We celebrated New Years with his family and did a LOT of cuddling...but I realized that somewhere along the line, I would look at him and feel... off. It didn't feel right and we kept getting into fights. I didn't like it, so I talked to him about it. We decided that I am too controlling and critical of him and our beliefs and life views are different. So, we broke up. It was a bummer, but it was for the best and we both felt better about it after. We tried to whole "let's still be best friends" thing but it didn't work. I didn't like him at all anymore and I got easily annoyed. So, I kinda ignored him for a while. Now I see him occasionally and we chat on FB sometimes, but I am still keeping my distance. If I don't I might loose any fondness for him that I have left. After We broke up in January, I got really depressed. I lost a bunch of energy and I just wasn't healthy. I am not sure if it is a direct result of the break up or not. Um, then Boy#2 started to hang out with me and that was fun, he told me he liked me and we texted and hung out whenever he had extra time. I started cutting in March out of curiosity, but then I got obsessed. I told one of my counselors about it in mid-march and started counseling on campus once a week with a woman who signs. I noticed though, that after counseling, I felt worse and cut more often. During Spring break, I made the trip down to SD, finally! I spent a majority of my time with Walter camping and I met his mother and bother, I also got to sleep in his room ( he slept on the couch) and I had so much fun. I also visited AJ but it wasn't as fun. She is so isolated now that she hardly paid me any attention. I hope that we don't drift apart!!! I spent most of my time with her youngest sister. Then I spent a day with my parents before coming back to CSUN. When I got back, I was so relaxed. Traveling and seeing Walter was the best cure for me. It wasn't perfect as I am still depressed and unmotivated and distracted, but I am better. I have made some plans for the summer and I am trying to solidify them. Right now, I am trying to deal with another boy problem. I got into a mini-argument with Boy#2, and texted another friend for advice. unfortunately, i sent it to Boy#2 by mistake and he got really angry. He said that he no longer wants to pursue the idea of a relationship with me. :( I got over him faster than I thought. As much as I have Attention Deficit Disorder (Not ADD. I mean I need attention all the time) I don't care about having a boyfriend. Anyway. There is also one more... series of events that I want to share before signing off. When I got back to campus, I texted this guy. He has been paying me a lot of attention. The problem is that he is a chronic flirt and has a really jealous girlfriend. Anyways, I asked if he wanted to hang out and he invited me to a party at a friend's house. I accepted, hoping to have some safe fun with him and socialize in a non-school setting. Boy was I wrong! I had alcohol. way too much. It started because they had the only beer that I like, so I was slurping away and minding my own business, when a friend got all excited that I was drinking and asked if I wanted to try shots. I said, "sure, why not" I had shots and this friend I was with and I got really "I love you drunk" The other party goers were concerned and separated us, or tried to anyway. After the party, I was ready for bed. I was pass out drunk, but not enough to decline him when he asked if I wanted to still hang out. Since the pool tables were in the locked up community center, we made our way over to his empty dark dorm suite and watched a movie. And cuddled and kissed. It was awesome until we got interrupted. I went home and slept it off, but I knew that we would never get another chance at that. We still hang out, but not as much. He has been there for me when I felt really low and hugged all my tears away. I really like him (in a shallow way, I admit) and he is a great guy and so fun to hang out with. I wish he weren't taken. I have told other people that if he broke up with his current girlfriend and started to date me, I would refuse, but I know that isn't true. The only thing that is true is that I could probably have a "just or fun" relationship and not get to attached if I wanted to. I want some guy fun in my life. My life is way too serious. I know I should be worried about myself and not guys but guys are so much fun! So, I think that sums it up. I am feeling better and have stopped cutting....Oh FRANK! I forgot to mention Frank. There was his guy that I met in January that was really cute and I hung out with him, but he quickly lost interest with me. I saw him right before Spring break, and I decided that he wasn't worth my time. Um, I have decided to not go after my party friend or go out of my way to give him any attention. If he comes to me, I won't deny him or ignore him, but I am not going to text him or anything. Considering that I see him all the time around campus, it's not too obvious, but I think it is more for his girlfriend's sake and mine than anything. I am trying to prove to all three of us that I am not trying to get him to cheat on her... ahem again.

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Sad, just sad

GLOBALIZATION:

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Catch up

Ok, three things: I read the Hunger games series, I like Erick, and I have started to exercise (and have come to the conclusion that I am a weakling).

One: I have read the hunger games series. I bought the first one and borrowed the other two from my roommate Liz. While a fun, quick read, it disappointed me. The writing itself was choppy and immature and it had some typos. As for the plot, both Liz and I agreed that each book was a continuation of the same thing. The first book, she volunteers to replace her sister in the hunger games. In book two, she is forced back in and rescued out. In the third book, she is in a war that is basically the hunger games again, just without the arena. Blah.

Two: I like Erick. Like I said in my last post, I am not desperate for a relationship. This one caught me off guard. I met Erick a couple of years ago, but we never hung out. We just bumped into each other every once in a while. When I was accepted into CSUN, we agreed to hang out. Finally this semester, we started to see each other more. We met at Arbor Grill and talked for a long time, then he invited me for lunch at his apartment. His friend Rhonda showed up as well and we had a good time. When Rhonda left, Erick and I continued to chat, and found out that we have a lot in common. We talked about exercise and sexual preference and drugs and parties. Then while I was lying on the ground, he looked at me and told me that he likes me. le sigh. :) He is super cute and funny and I like him too. We agreed to meet twice a week to run together, and I am really excited. We got together on Tuesday, and we were going to meet on Friday but he got sick. I found out that I am a very quick person when it comes to relationships, while he is very slow. Sigh. I can respect that, but sometimes it feels like he is loosing interest because he doesn't try anything .I know it's not fair, especially because I don't know him very well. 

Three: As I mentioned, Erick and I plan to exercise twice a week together. When I am not with him, I do other exercises. We run, I walk, do push ups, etc. I am so weak, it is ridiculous! I can't do monkey bars or pull-ups or anything. Gah! So, I am continuing to work on it everyday, around homework and church and stuff.

The End

It was fun while it lasted, but it didn't last long. After almost four months, Sevan and I decided to break off our boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. No, there was no fighting, or clawing out of eyes. We just came to the conclusion that we were not compatible as soul mates. We have decided that since we are so comfortable together, there is no reason not to be friends. We hope to become closer than ever before. What happened is that we rushed into a relationship instead of being friends first. If we had, we probably would have realized that it wouldn't work out before we got together. I have no regrets whatsoever. Both of us wanted to be in a relationship, and now that I have, I am no longer desperate for someone. Honestly, if I surround myself with people that love me I will be fine. The reason I was so desperate before, was that I wanted to prove that I wasn't unlovable. I felt that because I had never had a boyfriend, that no one could passably love me that way. I don't know why, but now I feel free to be single or in a relationship. I am not seeking either. I can take a deep breath ad focus on other, more important things...like school. Like I said, we are still very close, and we are happy.

Procrastination at its best0.o

So, I forgot to do a homework assignment because I thought the assignment was optional. It wasn't. Now it's over a week late and I have no idea if she will even accept it. The home work is for my ASL transliteration class, and I have to "gloss" a story from English into ASL. Here goes nothing:

F.S. FOR WHOM THE BELL TOLLS

CAVE SHAPE POINT MAN CL 2: BENT ON SIDE. DREAM. SMELL +++ DIFFERENT. PREFER WHICH(WHQ)? INDIANS LIVE AREA GRASS GROW +++ GATHER ++TWIST SHAPE BASKET WEAVE. SMELL(Y/N)? R.S. COW HOLD SKIN RIP OFF STRETCH CL 5: SMOKE OVER FIRE. SMELL (Y/N)? R.S. FINISH RAIN SOAK IN GROUND GRASS GROW. SMELL (Y/N)?R.S. KNOW SPAIN SHAPE, NORTH WEST. THAT BEFORE NAME F.S. GALACIA. HAVE YELLOW FLOWER NAME GROSE. +++ GROW SHAPE LAND, WALK. WIND IN FACE. SMELL (Y/N)? R.S. NIGHT OCEAN, BOAT SAIL. POINT F.S. CUBA. HAVE THREE, POINT ONE: SHAPE CACTUS FLOWER +++BLOOM. POINT TWO: F.S. MIMOSA. POINT THREE: OCEAN GRAPE. SMELL (Y/N)? R.S. MORNING WAKE UP, HUNGRY BACON COOK SMELL(Y/N)? R.S. COFFEE SMELL(Y/N)? F.S. CIDER SHAPE CIRCLE MILL GRIND. SMELL (Y/N)?R.S. APPLE F.S. JOHNATHAN. CL 5: BENT EAT. SMELL (Y/N)? R.S. BREAD IN/OUT OVEN PUT-ON-TOP. SMELL (Y/N)? SIGH. HUNGRY MAYBE. LOOK-UP NIGHT STARS. SNOW LAYER. LIGHT REFLECT IN FACE. AUTHOR: F.S. EARNEST HEMINGWAY

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