Update

blahblahblah...bored. I finally started a new-ish wake up routine. i say new-ish because it's the same routine, only I am actually doing it. I wake up at five, go online, say two quotes that put me in a good mood and do a few calm things like read my Bible or practice ambidexterity. Stuff like that. I find that waking up early makes it easier to have  good attitude later in the day. Once I get used to waking up that early, I will get a more settled routine of exactly what I need to do, including exercising at the SRC and making myself some tea.
I may have a job already lined up for when I get back. Matador patrol called and we set up an interview via Skype for Tuesday at 3:15. *fingers crossed* that I get the job. Even if I only get a few hours here and there, it would be worth it to get this job because A) I might be able to work nights and not interfere with my class schedule B) they will be more flexible and willing to work around my schedule- including during finals and C) if I decide to get a second or different job, it will be easier to get one when I already have a job. :)
My emotional state has been a lot better recently. I have been working on being confident and working towards my goals and keeping busy as much as possible. I had a confrontation/ intervention with my parents a while back, and basically I realized that, yes, sometimes I need to focus on myself and let other people deal with their own problems, but I was doing it at all the wrong times, and my self control was non-existent.
I love talking to Frank. He makes me all jittery inside. :p (my capital p button is not working ) I drew a picture of him (i tend to draw a picture of all the guys i like at some point or another. they inspire me) I am so impatient! tomorrow i can start video Skyping him again (internet caps are a pain!) and in one month, I will be back in Northridge, so I can give him a big hug! :D