Day 17

Getting a bit repetitive with the posts. Who cares? I had a great day yesterday. It was threatened by the fact that my check has not arrived yet. I really wanted to buy elk. Oh well. Because of that, I was tempted to not go to the farmer's market, and just stay home and pout all day. At the last minute I figured that I could either be miserable at home, or go outside and be miserable. I decided on the latter. I biked up to downtown, feeling very sorry for myself.

The first bit of good news was that "Worthy Wednesdays" was back, so I got my weekly two bags of popcorn. After that, I wandered through the farmer's market, grabbing samples along the way. Nothing like fresh fruit to cheer you up. I was still feeling melancholy when I arrived at my favorite stall. Cada Dia Cheese, is fast becoming a real interest of mine. While the farmer's market only lasts a few more weeks, the production of milk lasts until November, and Pat makes cheese all year round. It is really too bad that his farm is all the way in Prineville, or I would go there and help out with the cows!

As I always do, I stayed to the side so as to not interfere with his business, and talked to him when he had time. He genuinely seems to like having me around, and he has a great personality. After a few minutes of me standing there and occasionally advertising some of the cheese for him, he asked if I wanted to go behind the counter and help him sell. hmmm....DUH! So, I washed my hands and got to work. It was difficult because it was so busy, and people expect me to know things that I am just learning myself. I had to think on my feet and learn on the job about the cheese and the customers.

I think I did relatively well, and I hope that I get offered to help again. Pat did criticize my work a bit after the farmer's market, but I had to remind him that I had never done it before, and everything was new to me.

I learned a lot about farmer's markets from working yesterday. I learned that venders often trade product with each other. They seem to have a good relationship with other venders. Without even meeting anyone else, I was accepted and teased just because I worked there. It was incredible. I would venture to guess that, with time, I would be really good at selling  cheese.

I also got offered an interpreting job, but I had to turn it down due to transportation. If I see that couple again, I will ask if they would be willing to drive me. That way, I could accept the job. I wouldn't ask for any money, just the opportunity to go to the farm with them.

I really love living here. If I didn't have my parents to worry about, I would think about moving here for good. I would have to get used to real seasons, and things closing early, etc., but I think it would be really healthy to live in a place like this.



1. Eggs and apple. Plus various foods through out the day
2. If we are talking about "bad" food, then yes, because I am fazing out the food in the cupboard. Otherwise, no poison.
3. I walked the dog. Not far, but we did go out.
4. I lifted myself. I am learning to do a handstand. I am so weak. OMG
5. With the dog....always :P
6. I slept very well
7. With the dog.
8. When I walked the dog
9. no trauma today :)
10. Sudoku

I have noticed that at least three or four things everyday involve the dog. I love that dog. :)

Day 16

So far my mood is good. I have the farmer's market today, and my mom has yet to criticize me or put me down. I am going to go on a walk, and I got to sleep with my wool blanket because of the cold last night. :) I am finding that two eggs in the morning with a banana is not enough fuel. Perhaps I should buy some sausage and put that in there?

I have decided that as part of my Paleo-transformation, and to keep me inspired to post here, I will write how I fulfilled all ten laws everyday... or how I plan to.

1. eggs (animal) and banana (plants)
2. no more ramen to eat, and I am trying to avoid poisonous feelings too.
3. Walking to the farmer's market today (45 mins. each way)
4. Push ups. Once I have the extra money, I will buy a pull up bar.
5. I will probably do that when I walk the dog.
6. I slept from 2100 last night, until 0700 today
7. With the dog? OK. On the playground? Sure
8. I will be getting sunlight on my way to the farmer's market
9.  Avoiding anything is hard to do, but for now, money. I will not spend all of my money today.
10. Sudoku here I come.

Day 15

Aaaaannnndd.....mood crash. This has gotten really old. I was doing fine until my mom decided to yell at me and tell me that I am not trying hard enough to find a job. I actually applied at three places today. I also followed up with Subway. Still waiting on that one. Grrr. At this point, I don't even care if they hire me. I just want her to give me an answer. Anyway, I thought that my parents had agreed not to pressure me anymore, because of my stress levels, but I guess only my Dad agreed to that. My mom said that he was fed up too, but I don't believe it. :/ I hope not. I thought he was on my side. Anywho, the good news is that my mom is starting the Paleo diet as well, so our eating choices should start to align soon. She bought a bunch of non paleo food a couple of days ago, because she thought I would want it. Ooops. Now that we are on the same page, hopefully that won't happen anymore. Also, I finally got the check from Walter, so that won't be keeping me up at night. I haven't gotten it out of the mail yet (been lazy, I guess). I'm afraid to. It might have less than I expect. Oh, well. I hope that tomorrow is better. I get to cash my check, and go to the farmer's market. Plus I am going to wash my linens, so fresh sheets!

Day 14

Still going strong.

I have noticed that I feel better lately. I am not sure if it is just my emotional cycle starting again (we'll see in two to three weeks) or if it is because I am striving to become the person that I want to be, instead of making excuses.

I am slowly changing the way I live, and I like it.

Day 13

           Woot Woot! I did it again. I remembered. Now that I have a  planner with dates in it, instead of just my notebook, it is much easier to remember what I need to do, and do them. (I was going to finish that sentence differently, but my mind blanked. I hate it when that happens.)
            Yesterday was such a busy day. After I wrote in my blog, and did a few other things, my mom and I went on a hike to some waterfalls about an hour away. We didn't get back until five or so, and then I went to a meetup group to play some board games. I really love that group. I have so much fun with them. Even though they are all a bit older than me, it doesn't feel like I am only hanging around senior citizens. The people there are probably in their thirties and forties. (Better than sixties and eighties, which I normally hang out with)
           I am also a part of an art group. All of them are much older than me, but I don't mind because they help me feel confident in my art. None of us are 'professional' grade artists. We have a knack for sketching (and other mediums, as I found out).
          I am proud of myself on another note as well. I downloaded a couple different Bible apps on my tablet, and now I am doing two bible plans. One is called 'chronological' I think it is meant to be the books of the bible in the order they were written, though I am not sure. I have been mostly reading Proverbs and some in Corinthians with that. The other plan is one I made up. It is to read the New Testament in a year. There are 260 Chapters in the New Testament, so even if I skip an atrocious amount of days, it is still very possible to attain my goal. After I am done with the New Testament, I will most likely be ready to move onto the Old Testament.
         I have decided that I complain about my life way too much. I am starting another blog page today entitled "My unique journey". Every time I do something that I could look at and say, "That is interesting or unique or fun etc." I will write it down. On days that I don't do anything, I will write something from my past that makes my life interesting." This will be super easy at first, because I have done a number of fabulous things in my past. Hopefully, it will help me to look at my life in a new light, and encourage me to go out and do more things with my life that I will be proud to share.

Day 12

BAM!!! Take that pattern! I remembered two days in a row. What now?!

        On another note, I think that I have been telling my animals that they are the alphas, all my life. I have been scratching under their chins. In the wild, that means the I am beneath them. On the other hand, when I pet their heads, they act more submissive, because I have told them that they are beneath ME, and that I am the alpha. People assume that domestic animals have no traces of wild instincts left if they were born in a domestic environment, but that simply is not true. Take cats: They often bring in dead mice and lizards that they hunt and kill. They cover up their waste. They claw you when you touch their exposed bellies. These are all wild behaviors. Dogs roll on their backs to show submission. They bark at any perceived danger. They often "wolf" down their food. They play tug-a-war, and pounce on toys. These are also images of their wild selves.
      In my humble opinion, animals should be raised as animals, and not as babies. They should be treated and cared for the natural way. That is all. You may now return to your regularly scheduled programs.

Hasta la vista!

 

Day 11

Oh no! It's Friday the 13th! Something bad is going to happen....No. No, it isn't. So far, I am in a wonderful mood, I made a yummy egg breakfast, walked the dog, and improved my score on Sudoku. Not to mention that I remembered to post on my blog. :) I have Top Ramen in my closet, and money in the bank, and Walter is sending me the money left over from moving. On Monday, I will call Subway, and if I don't have a response from them, I will go back to filling out apps and calling in for day labor places. Either way, I am going back to CSUN in the Spring, and I am happy today. Friday the 13th has nothing on me. BooYahhhhhhh.